Posted this mainly for SCD but since I only drew for SCD this place is obviously highly affected. I have commissions waiting so it's not like I'm going to stop drawing or posting but it's going to be like no one was ever here basically. I'm not going to delete anything because that's just stupid. But without further crap, an explanation:

"There was a time you let me know whats really going on below,
But now you never show it to me, do you? (and)
Remember when I moved in you; the holy dark was moving too,
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah"

SCD has been dieing for a while but for reasons I couldn't explain or perhaps put blame in the wrong place. I couldn't see it and it was right in front of my face. Binary plays in the background today. For those of you who don't know, that was Juno and Shades' love theme. I can't cry as I write this because I'm luckily at work. I can't write this at home because I can't go home anymore.

If I've learned one thing from all this, it's never do anything, especially a dream for somebody else. It becomes a vicarious extension of someone else and nothing of yourself. There is a lot of me in SCD but so much of someone I love in it to. As of May 26, 2006, that someone was gone. He was my muse, the reason I started SCD, the reason I published, the reason I wanted to share this story with the world because he actually saw with me how incredible and encompassing this story truly was. No one, save maybe two others in my life have ever truly seen it. No one else probably ever will. The blind say inspiration can come from anywhere. That's very wrong. For those who don't keep up with the rants or the forum, we were engaged for four years, set to be married on our five year anniversary next year. He fell away from me. He told me to my face he never appreciated me but he never meant not to. We had something beautiful... or so I thought.

So SCD dies with us.

I will leave the forum up and the archives till a few pages into Book 2. I do plan on coming back someday when I can find passion in this story for myself but that may not be for years.

To those who've been with me along the way, thank you. To those who told me I was lazy and had a phobia of work, I hope you understand now and hope you realize that now I'm basically a shell. I have no dreams anymore. So you've lost your competition. Be happy. I was never competition for you anyway. As for my other webcomic buddies, those who were actually my friends thank you for that - those who merely were networking, you know who you are, sorry your traffic went down. What am I supposed to say to you? You were always rude to me and there isn't just one of you. To my forumites, I love you so much. Keep posting - that place is still a community, comic or not and always has been. Keep it alive and I'll always be there to keep you in line. ^_- To everyone that bought Book 1, thank you so much for your support and I'm so sorry. I hope to give you 8 more someday.

I'm sorry for everything ya'll. Please take care of yourselves. Feel free to drop me line anytime. I'm on myspace now. You can find it in the forums in General Discussion. Please send me a message first and let me know you're an SCD reader or I won't approve you as a friend. I'll miss you all. I'll miss my home here. Please don't forget about this place and me. *hugs*

"Maybe there's a God above,
And all I ever learned from love was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
And its not a cry you can hear at night, its not somebody who's seen the light,
Its a cold and its a broken Hallelujah"

The myspace URL is [link] - remember leave a comment if you request to be my bud otherwise I will delete your request. I'm trying to avoid the creepies. I'd like to stay in touch with everyone as best I can. I sincerely will miss everyone.